Few years ago i have had a big Luck to meet a wonderful young man at msn..at first moment we had good vibration..he ,even,made me feel sexy and young again.
We talk about all,we talk every evening and most of nights.
He is younger than me and we lived on opposite sides of world and its only a little possibility to meet in real.
But whats important in him i found my soul mate.
In one moment,during our friendship on line,i realize that felling for him grow in me,fast.
I start to be afraid of my feelings..
First im mother,grandmother,im from very traditional family and in some way i know my place.
I dont want to hurt my family,my partner,my friends.
I was in front big wall..from one side wonderful on line friendship with man who share same look on life and human sexuality-and on other side my traditional background and my strong feeling for my look at morality /i like to think that i have high morality standards/.
For the very first time in my life i couldn't find a way to tell him open that i want to end our relationship/the reason is i have deep feelings for him and deep in my heart i dont want to loose him/.
Life is so complicate,there is no easy solution for our problems...its easy to judge,its easy to declare as faithful person but some decision need all our power.
I still cant imagine to spot our friendship forever-but i know we cant be just friends and if we dont stop i will want more and more from our friendship!
The question is what he feel for me?does he see me as good partner for little funny on line games?
Does he respect me after all?
Can i still respect myself?
Question is still here:what to do with my feelings.
At the and i must say im grateful for a such good man in my life and i cant shut the door to him.
He have special place in my heart!
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