All my weekends nightmare for me.
Its OK during week,I'm so busy that i don't feel how much i miss Ken.
Ken have job t o do in foreigner country,faraway from home.
I have job and family here so its mission impossible for me to visit him!
If i want to visit him i have to fly 18hours,so i cant visit him for a weekend!
This situation with his job make me feel so miserable.
I have full house,my parents are here,my pets,my children with families and few friends come here for weekend.
Even home is full of people i love i still miss ken so so much.
When i was younger i did not have problem with being alone at home,in that time i was thinking that i still have time.
Now I'm much older and i know that we have no time to waste.
I made decision,this is the last time we are separate for such a long time,if he will have to travel in Australia again i will company him.
I will leave all job to my children.
After all this years ,all this time i was living for my children and family ,time comes for Ken and me to be together.
Ken told me ,years ago,that i have to leave my children to live there own liefs,but i could not!
Its funny but sometimes i see myself as Raymond mother from TV show Raymond!!
I have huge needs to control every part of my children life,that's why i stay at home,that's why I'm feeling miserable tonight.
Its time ,for me,to move on.
I have to know my priorities and my priority is my relationship with Ken.
Ken ,now i know what i done to us,please forgive me/this is song from me to you!!/
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