After long day ,first at office ,than at home with my kids and grandkids,and pets and my hubby/of course/,i am not feeling so good.To be open and honest last few years i am not feeling so good!
if you take a look at my life all seems so nice and in order.Husband,wife,kids,grandkids,sons in law,pets -big happy family/like on TV commercials/!!!
And yes if you like to know i am proud on my family,my healthy ,lovely ,happy family!
And,my friends,yes i choose this way of life.
After my graduations/by the way i am master of science in math/,i decided to start married life and yes it was my choice to have kids and yes i decided to stop work while my kids are in need for mother!
No its not nice to say i done all this for happiness of my children,no its not right!
My kids bring me so much happiness!
Now you can figure where is a problem!
Problem is not connected with my children,nooooooooooooo
My problem is going from my relationship with my husband.
From 1988 we sleeps in separate rooms and all this years we are living without any intimate contact!
Now you can think that i was one who didn't want sex any more,but you are wrong.
My hubby didn't want it all this years!
You can think she must had lovers ,but i didn't/sorry i had one lover for very short time/!
Imagine how can be hard to live all this years without any intimate contacts with opposite sex!
For me,was very hard and still is hard and this way of life hurting me as human been and as woman who have some needs!
Do not ask me why i didn't left my husband!I didn't and i will not!
he is very good with children,very caring father and my children adore him.
by the way all our friends and my family adore him!
Deep inside i am very lonely!
I have wonderful family,good job,nice friends and i am not happy at all.
I am lonely!
Sad sometimes!
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